Am I a Christian?

Somethings are strange.

I have been re-evaluating whether or not I am truly a Christian. I have been baptised. And, I have accepted Jesus Christ as my savior. I read the bible, and enjoy what I read. I love attending church. And I pretty much agree and follow everything the bible says to do, and not to do. (The major exception being fornication: which will probably change when I get a job, and get my own place.)

But, I have a universalist view of the world. And honestly, I don't think anyone could change it. Although, I have accepted the Christian concepts that I have been raised to believe as truth... I cannot say that I believe others who denounce or ignore these concepts are going to hell. Most times I do not believe in "the devil". It seems to be just a word to describe that which is ineffable - or at least unimaginable.

I have been thinking about Zen Buddhism. Not as a renunciation of Christianity... but as a way of life.

So far, I can only meditate for about 2-5 minutes. I could stand to work on this.

I think it is easier, when you are African-American, to be a Christian. There is so much stigma in the Black community against those who are not.

In the past, I would talk about Christianity with my Christian friends - mainly my sorority sisters. And, I would not talk of other world religions for fear of talk of heathenism or demons.

I am wondering if I am ready to believe in Christ, follow Christ... get my spritual life together... without the comforting title of "Christian".

As a Black person, I think its an interesting step to take...