Love, Respect, Whores and Self-Consciousness

1. Someone asked whether you should respect people who don't respect themselves. Or rather, stated that one would look foolish, for respecting a person who doesn't respect themselves.

I reckon that one's action should be built on one's own determination not on anyone else's. If one person participates in self-inflicted pain, that does not justify others to inflict pain as well.

And besides, the whole concept of thinking you can judge whether a person respects themselves is ... one that should be escaped. Different people have different values. At what point should we enforce our values on others... if at all?

Regardless, I figure you decide to love someone or not. You decide to respect someone, treat them respectfully or not. Don't blame them for decisions you make. Otherwise, you choose to hate, you choose to ignore, or you choose to actively disrespect. Either way, how you treat people (except in the cases of coercion) is your decision.

2. For the past few days, I have been meditating on what it means to be a whore, or a ho. Or whether that word has any valuable use at all.

In the past, I thought that being a whore meant having multiple sex partners simultaneously; recently, I have been wondering if whoredom simply covers the habitual exercise of have sex with partners who do not either love or respect the person (usually a woman) - regardless of monogamy or polygamy.

If so, does this cover people who are lied to, or people who lie to themselves?

In the end, or rather, at the end of the day - the word whore or its counterpart 'ho' has no valuable usage at all. Just a verbal means of judgement in order to denounce someone else's practices, and justify one's own.

3. I have been too self-conscious to participate in NaNoWriMo.

4. I always feared that people would not like me, if they truly had the opportunity to know me.

Lately, I have been so self-conscious of what other people think -- I have been attempting to suspend my own thoughts. (...to no avail.)